Nameless thoughts out of senselessness ...

Sometimes life passes you by like the shadows on the wall...

dark and distant, it creeps across as you are a little adrift.
You watch the events as they unfold in front of you,
you are no longer living them, you are a mere spectator... !
you wonder if you are a part of it or if it is just someone else...
there is a raging storm in the heart but the mind is numb to it all,
it cannot even hear itself as it drowns in the raging storm
you are just walking through the frames, living the motions
as the clock ticks through.

And then out of the blue, the light leaves and there is darkness,
darkness, that encloses your very being, that threatens to engulf you too,
that takes away the light but brings in the quiet...
you are faced with a dark wall, that seems insurmountable,
if you could remember, you would remember your first days of being,
in a world of darkness, suspended by hope
growing and finding your way
Its the same feeling, you realize, as you hear yourself amidst the silence and the stillness
the world is moving again...
the stillness outside drowns your heart
and the mind starts feeling again...

And then reality hits you like a beam of light
it bleeds through dissolving the darkest of the nights
you see the shadows back again
you feel yourself again
you find yourself in that maze on the wall and you can hear yourself again...

sometimes you need to lose your 'self',
to find it back again...